Yesterday, January 17th, was my mother's birthday. It was a sad time, she passed fifteen years ago, and is deeply missed.
It gave me time to think about my life, and how I was living it. I am not so foolish as to believe that I could possibly live my life as she lived hers. Times were different then, not easier, just different. Expectations were different then too!!
Remembering how things were when I grew up, I am thankful that my children are grown now. This world has changed. Not a place where I would want to have children and raise them. Although, I know and understand that it is doable with GOD's help.
This past year has taken me on quite a journey. To places that I really did not want to go, but survived. Learning to take one moment at a time, knowing that time is precious and not promised.
That is one lesson that is particularly hard for me, I am one who loved thinking and planning ahead. Even if my plans did not work out, I was always writing them down and trying to figure them into my life. So every day I work on living in the moment and being thankful for those moments.